It’s a new year, and I think it’s high time I start breaking some bad habits
and start implementing new ones in my life.
“We become what we want to be, by consistently being what we want to become each day.” – Richard G. Scott
I want to break the habit of staying up late, sitting up in bed and using my phone/laptop.
I’m not getting enough sleep as it is, and I know this makes it worse. It’s a habit I’m struggling to break, but I’m working on it. Not only does it hurt my eyes and I can feel them drooping and aching, but also, I know I’ll feel like a zombie in the morning.
PICKING AT MY SKIN / NAILS
When I become anxious (and let’s face it – that’s basically all the time), I tend to pick a lot of my skin around my nails, often without realising it. I notice my fingernails becoming sore and red after a while, and looking rather unattractive.
It’s a form of self-harm, and it’s something I want to stop.
I second-guess about everything and I doubt myself, even when I know I’m on the right path. I recently found this out whilst driving. When I know I’m doing pretty great,
I often think things are going too well. I panic and screw up. This is generally how I am in life, and I want to break the habit of doubting myself. I know my stuff…
I just need to do it and have confidence in my ability.
I feel unnecessary guilt about a lot of things. I try to people-please.
I end up burning myself to keep others warm. It’s something I’ve got to stop doing.
I need to start doing things which I feel are right for me, regardless of anyone’s opinions and feelings. I feel really mean about it. I feel selfish, horrible, guilty,
but if my gut is telling me something, then I need to listen and trust it.
GOING TO THE GYM
Oh looky here, another “new year, and I’m going to the gym and eating healthy” kind of shit;
But here’s something I thought I’d never say in a million years;
Just before Christmas, I had begun going to the gym and getting fit.
I actually did it, instead of whizzing past it and ending up going to McDonald’s.
I enjoyed it, too, and I actually want to make a habit of doing this. I want to be good at waking up and keeping active, for my mental health mostly. It’s also to boost my confidence and get used to being in social environments.
THINKING ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE
I always wonder what others may think of me, and this makes me terribly anxious
when I’m out and about – even in my own home. I’m so paranoid, it’s ridiculous.
It’s one of the biggest habits I want to break – one which I’ve been doing for a very long time. When I’m out and about, I wonder whether people are looking at me and judging.
I want to be able to focus less on them, and more on myself.
So another habit is saying I’ll do something, and never end up doing them.
“I’ll do it tomorrow, this weekend, next week.” I end up procrastinating till it’s too late. Excuses are what I hate hearing from other people, so I hate that I’m doing it myself. I get great ideas, but when it comes to actually doing them, I back down. I’ve become too comfortable staying at home, and missing out on opportunities. I want to change this.
I want to break the habit of saying “Maybe, I’ll think about it”, to
“Yes, absolutely I’ll come.”
“If you always think and never do, YOU’LL NEVER ACCOMPLISH.”